Clarity

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I have been dreaming vividly again over the last weeks. Not nightmares so much, though one I had the other night did bother me quite a bit. It seems silly now because it really wasn’t creepy, just strange. I dreamt that I was trying to cover up the tiniest little spot on my forehead with…


Green, Black and Blue

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I had forgotten about Saint Patrick’s day. Somewhere in the back of my mind I remembered that it was coming up. I think I saw a few tacky memes online floating around. About noon yesterday I heard a few jokes in the cafe about drinking that night and hangovers. I thought to myself, “Eh. It’s…


The downside is they can never stop swimming

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A line from one of my favorite movies as a title for today. Sitting here at my laptop, my feet hanging off the side of the bed with black rain boots decorated in grey skulls. I need the water proofing for the floors since the apartment flooded on Thursday. We live right next to I-5….


A Tale of Another Long Friday

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Yesterday was “just one of those days.” The alarm went off at six and I climbed out of bed to do the usual morning routine. Hardly anything went right for the rest of the day after that moment. I did a few things quietly for half an hour before going to wake my youngest son….


127.5

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127.5 this morning. The last time it was normal to wake up with my weight down in the 120’s on a daily basis was twenty years ago when I was seventeen. I seem to have rediscovered the same metabolism I had back then as well. I remember several years back trying everything from the expensive…


I don’t really have a choice, right?

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I was watching one of those comedic dramas the other day about an alcoholic man who’s life had finally hit bottom. At one point in the film he looks up an old crush and visits her at home. She’s a single working mom and has a tale or two about how things had been over…


No Time For Tears

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Life is getting stranger and stranger. The more I take in, the more I am overwhelmed by just how much is happening in the world in every moment all around me. Reading the news feels a tad bit like having woken up in some kind of Twilight Zone universe. President Donald Trump. Jeezus fucking christ….


Shifting

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Time is slipping by so fast. Wasn’t it just spring time? Wasn’t I just walking the streets near my home admiring all of the new blooms, gorgeous petals and wonderful aromas of nature waking up for the year? Now the trees are nearly bare and the ground is covered with beautiful, decaying leaves that crunch under my…


The Art of Conversation

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I spend a lot of my time during the day silently thinking about… well, everything. Especially when I am at work. For as busy as the little bakery/slash/café gets, I have gone almost entire days weaving around co-workers and customers without speaking to anyone. It’s not intentional. It’s just what happens when you are a quiet…


Nightlife

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I’m playing the Friday night game. The one that usually starts weeks in advance when I click “interested” on a Facebook invitation page for an event, often times hosted at the old spooky club. I tell myself “Okay, this is the one. You are going to drag your weird, quiet, anti-social ass out of the…